a colored spectrum

silver rain

the soft melancholic song of the rain accompanied my sleep.
the cool breeze caressed my warm body, sending shivers down my spine.
i opened my groggy eyes, only to see a silver curtain outside my window.
it was beautiful. the greyish blue rain like silver satin, draping outside with natural flow.
the song of the rain reminds me of a waterfall.
the gushing, the pitter-patter, the soft shwish... it makes me yearn for love.

i yearn for someone, to sleep beside me. to hold me, to hug me.
i yearn for someone to caress my face, play with my hair and frolick me at my neck.
i yearn to feel his body, to feel his warmth under the thick comforter.
i yearn to be kissed all over and bitten on my lips while he grins playfully.
i yearn for someone to watch the rain with me while it last, it won't be for long.
for soon, the sun shines and the rain clouds will evaporate, leaving a rainbow across the skies.
but i do not yearn for the rainbow. i love the melancholic grey rain.
lightnings light up my heart.
it's creation out of atoms in the air reminds me how magnificent nature is.
clasp of thunder makes me want to hug someone closer, and be hugged in return.

there'll be no more songs for the lonely heart.
there'll be no more space for the creative mind, to imagine the storm outside her window as waterfall cascading down the entrance of the cave while she shivers inside.
there won't be anymore Mona Lisa smile, an all-knowing smile that mocks at the world,
seemingly to say "i know something you shallow humans don't". the Da Vinci Code.

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Jared's a joker.
he took a cab home last nite, left the ice box and some other BBQ equipments behind.
his Mum is so gonna screw him coz she needs to use those things today.
and yes, she did remind him to bring them home before he left for the BBQ.
someone's gonna get a scolding =P
but he did call the cab company to inform them. they told him to collect the stuff from the HQ these few days. quite good service,
he alwiz losing his things. the last time, he lost his one side of his shoes outside Zouk.
i'm surprised hwo come he doesn't lose himself at the shopping mall. hahah!

he's facing spiritual crisis now.
no, not that he's greatly affected by the most recent breakup.
it's about national service.
Jared's feeling unprotected, and drifting away from God.
i am quite glad, at least he is well aware that he's drifting away from God.
if he doesn't, he's in trouble.

i told him that there's no need to feel unprotected.
though he may be facing lots of problems, personal disappointments, and dilemas...
God won't abandon him, for God loves us.
it is true that sometimes, God will hide behind the scene to watch us stand on our own feet,
try to solve problems ourselves, not help us directly at the forefront. God never leaves us.
He also won't give us more problems than we are able to cope with and resolve.
Jared, have faith. pray with faith and conviction. remind yourself constantly to be Christ-like.
God will never leave you alone. don't put yourself with temptations either.

he feels that he's stuck in a tough position.
whenever he's given an appointment,
he needs to so-called Fuck the guys so as to push them harder.
but he can't bring himself to scold or even shout at them, though they're his peers.
he feels that it's just not the right thing to do.
but he understand that work is work, and things need to be done in there.
everytime before he books in at the start of the week,
he prays that he'll be Christ-like in his actions and decisions.
but at the end if the week, he reflects and find that he's not doing so.
it's hard especially when he's in army.

i don't know how i can help him since i've never been in army.
but i know that i have to be supportive, and guide him to walk with Christ.
like Josh said, the conflicts between army and Christianity issues are difficult to balance,
it does take a conscientious effort to focus on what would Jesus do in those situations,
but it ain't all that hard either.
i told Jared to liken himself to Moses leading the Isrealites....
you have to show yourself a capable, flexible and worthy leader.
motivate and encourage your men. there's no need to scold or shout at them.
bring to the every consequence of their actions and rally them together.
i may not be able to tell you what to do, nor even understand the situation you're facing,
but i do want you to know that i'm alwiz here for you to seek support and comfort in.
our friendship has came quite far. and each proved a friend in need.

posted by Veen @ 13:26